I've been struggling with my eating problems again lately. Usually taking in around 350-500 calories a day now.
I kinda blame my doctor. I have chronic achilles tendonitis due to 'over exercise' and from walking on my toes, which I've done for the past 14 years. But now the pain really hits :/ So I've been going to the doctors and last time I went, he told me I'm not allowed to exercise.. I'm still doing light exercise though. But basically, I'm afraid that I will gain weight and ever since he told me that, my calorie intake is going lower and lower. Water intake is up to 21 8 ounce glasses a day. I'm taking green tea slim pills, multi-vitamins, and calcium vitamins.
I'm afraid that if I do have to get the surgery on my ankles, that I'll go back down to the 150cal a day that I used to be at.. And it really sucks, but if it means I won't gain weight then so be it.
I've also learned that food is an anorexic's favorite thing is food, but won't eat it. I watch Food Network, the Cooking Channel, browse restaurant websites, and read cook books all day. And I cook whenever I get the chance. I just don't eat it.I make it for others. And I look at food. Just look at it. And I'm satisfied. I'm afraid of food, of eating it in particular, but I love it. Not the taste, not the smell, just that it's food. Why? I'm not sure. But I read somewhere that it's a side effect of this disorder.
Well.. I may keep posting, I may not.. But I will occasionally post. I start school on Wednesday, I have an extra class than usual and I have an editing position HOPEFULLY and physical therapy, so I'll be busy but I'll try to find time.